Tomorrow I will stand outside and wave as the car pulls out of the driveway. My mother has to go to a college campus that is rather far way. She will be back in a little over a week, but already we miss her. Dad has been rather clingy and my sister and I keep trying to follow Mom around the house. We will miss her very much, so will the cats. Schuster (our 12 or 13 orange and white male) normally sleeps with Mom at night in the basement bedroom. If she is not there he yowls and calls for her all night till his little throat is sore. Mom said I could sleep down there and try to keep him from missing "his woman" so much. I don't know if it will work, but it is worth a shot.
I am still blocked on my writing. The only thing I can write is a paper over the movie Labyrinth (the one with David Bowie). I have been meaning to write it for quite some time, but never got around to it. Still, I wish I could work on my book...
So here I sit at my desk, typing away while my sister sleeps in the bedroom next door. After this I shall do chores, read a book, and do whatever else comes to mind. We shall miss you Mom.
Monday, June 6, 2011
Thursday, March 3, 2011
Unexpected Plan
There's a joke that has an important message. How do you make God laugh? Tell him your plans.
So far in my life, my plans and God's have matched. I want to be a writer, and as my brother told me recently, I seem to be pretty good at it. I want to go to one college so badly that I pray every day for an acceptance letter almost to the point of tears. Friday, part of God's plan became obvious to me and I was completely thrown by surprise.
I am doing an online Bible Study with a group of kids around my age and young adults. We come from different states and some of us live in Canada. We all met through our favorite band, Manic Drive. The band members are administrators of the study along with a young mother who made friends with the band and started our Bible Study, Prayer Group, and friend group (for us to just chat). After the first few days, I was the only one commenting and saying my thoughts and views on the daily readings our teacher, Jodi, was posting for us to learn from. Jodi contacted me, she told me that this was the first Bible Study that she had taught and that my comments were very encouraging to her and that I was catching stuff that she was missing. I expressed how much I was enjoying our Bible Study. A few hours later I was staring at her reply, unsure if I should cry or scream. " If you'd like you can do one of the chapters studies for the day :) just let me know if you'd want to."
Me teach a lesson? I just got my faith back roughly two years ago! I don't know the books of the Bible and I have no Bible verses memorized. I've never been to church camp and only one concert. How the heck could I teach about a whole chapter of Proverbs to people I've never met? I just looked at the computer screen, part of me really, really wanted to do it. I love our online lessons, tearing apart the verses for any secrets God hid within for me to find. I loved posting my findings for my teacher and friends to read and tear apart for themselves. I even liked it when they proved me wrong on certain issues, but could I really teach a lesson myself?
Unsure of what to do, I reached for my phone and texted my brother at college, Ayden the son of my pastor. "Well, I think God is asking you to do something for him that would also help you as well." He replied within minutes. "I wouldn't pass it up. What are you nervous about?"
I told him my fears and doubts, but even then I knew I would take up Jodi's offer. God wouldn't have put this before me if he didn't think I could do it. I had no cause to be nervous. Still the back of my head tittered back and forth. At least until Ayden texted me again. "I'm going to tell you what my dad told me. It's not you who's speaking or even influencing them. It's God who's doing the talking. The disciples didn't know their scripture either, but God spoke through them." That did it, I typed a reply to Jodi immediately saying I would be interested in taking one of the lessons if she would like me to. Ayden continued to talk to me, saying that I couldn't be that surprised by Jodi's offer. "I'm just saying you've got a way with words." He added, which gave me more strength. If I was actually meeting these people, chances are I would fall over from stage fright, normally I have no problems with talking in front of others, but this will be the first time I've done it over the Bible. All I have to do is type my thoughts over the chapter and post them for the rest of the class to see. As Ayden put it, it was "a good starting point."Although, I did start to panic a bit when I read that text. Starting point? Oh boy.
Jodi messaged me back and we agreed that I would take over the lesson for Proverbs chapter 20 when we reached it (we're going through the whole book, one chapter a day). My pastor had a huge grin on his face when I told him this morning at church. I still can't believe that I'm actually going to teach a lesson. My stomach has been fluttering since last night, though that may be due to the Girl Scout Cookies and peanut butter cups.
While I'm very nervous, I can't wait to reach chapter 20. Teaching a Bible Study lesson was never in my plans, but it was in God's and I'm sure he was laughing when I opened that message from Jodi. I can't help but laugh at my reaction with him. Was I really stupid enough to think that I knew what all was going to happen? This was completely unexpected, but it's still part of God's plan.
So far in my life, my plans and God's have matched. I want to be a writer, and as my brother told me recently, I seem to be pretty good at it. I want to go to one college so badly that I pray every day for an acceptance letter almost to the point of tears. Friday, part of God's plan became obvious to me and I was completely thrown by surprise.
I am doing an online Bible Study with a group of kids around my age and young adults. We come from different states and some of us live in Canada. We all met through our favorite band, Manic Drive. The band members are administrators of the study along with a young mother who made friends with the band and started our Bible Study, Prayer Group, and friend group (for us to just chat). After the first few days, I was the only one commenting and saying my thoughts and views on the daily readings our teacher, Jodi, was posting for us to learn from. Jodi contacted me, she told me that this was the first Bible Study that she had taught and that my comments were very encouraging to her and that I was catching stuff that she was missing. I expressed how much I was enjoying our Bible Study. A few hours later I was staring at her reply, unsure if I should cry or scream. " If you'd like you can do one of the chapters studies for the day :) just let me know if you'd want to."
Me teach a lesson? I just got my faith back roughly two years ago! I don't know the books of the Bible and I have no Bible verses memorized. I've never been to church camp and only one concert. How the heck could I teach about a whole chapter of Proverbs to people I've never met? I just looked at the computer screen, part of me really, really wanted to do it. I love our online lessons, tearing apart the verses for any secrets God hid within for me to find. I loved posting my findings for my teacher and friends to read and tear apart for themselves. I even liked it when they proved me wrong on certain issues, but could I really teach a lesson myself?
Unsure of what to do, I reached for my phone and texted my brother at college, Ayden the son of my pastor. "Well, I think God is asking you to do something for him that would also help you as well." He replied within minutes. "I wouldn't pass it up. What are you nervous about?"
I told him my fears and doubts, but even then I knew I would take up Jodi's offer. God wouldn't have put this before me if he didn't think I could do it. I had no cause to be nervous. Still the back of my head tittered back and forth. At least until Ayden texted me again. "I'm going to tell you what my dad told me. It's not you who's speaking or even influencing them. It's God who's doing the talking. The disciples didn't know their scripture either, but God spoke through them." That did it, I typed a reply to Jodi immediately saying I would be interested in taking one of the lessons if she would like me to. Ayden continued to talk to me, saying that I couldn't be that surprised by Jodi's offer. "I'm just saying you've got a way with words." He added, which gave me more strength. If I was actually meeting these people, chances are I would fall over from stage fright, normally I have no problems with talking in front of others, but this will be the first time I've done it over the Bible. All I have to do is type my thoughts over the chapter and post them for the rest of the class to see. As Ayden put it, it was "a good starting point."Although, I did start to panic a bit when I read that text. Starting point? Oh boy.
Jodi messaged me back and we agreed that I would take over the lesson for Proverbs chapter 20 when we reached it (we're going through the whole book, one chapter a day). My pastor had a huge grin on his face when I told him this morning at church. I still can't believe that I'm actually going to teach a lesson. My stomach has been fluttering since last night, though that may be due to the Girl Scout Cookies and peanut butter cups.
While I'm very nervous, I can't wait to reach chapter 20. Teaching a Bible Study lesson was never in my plans, but it was in God's and I'm sure he was laughing when I opened that message from Jodi. I can't help but laugh at my reaction with him. Was I really stupid enough to think that I knew what all was going to happen? This was completely unexpected, but it's still part of God's plan.
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Snow Days
School had to close for today and tomorrow. It appears the current weather makes it unable for our medications to be delivered. I have enjoyed peace and quite instead of screams and yells. My cell has been cleaned and I am being allowed to bake a little tonight.
Hopefully, we will have even more snow and I will be able to go sledding with Tristin. Aric has told me his college campus has closed as well and we are both rather excited that we will get to talk to each other more over the glorious internet.
As I watch the snow fall I keep thinking of stories to write, problem is I have so many I don't know where to start. Sometimes I wonder if that is part of the flip side to writing. Either way, I would not stop writing for all the world. Nothing is completely bad or fully good. All things have a little of both.
Hopefully, we will have even more snow and I will be able to go sledding with Tristin. Aric has told me his college campus has closed as well and we are both rather excited that we will get to talk to each other more over the glorious internet.
As I watch the snow fall I keep thinking of stories to write, problem is I have so many I don't know where to start. Sometimes I wonder if that is part of the flip side to writing. Either way, I would not stop writing for all the world. Nothing is completely bad or fully good. All things have a little of both.
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Wednesday Quotes
"They sell Jesus...in a box."
"Does he come in assortments?"
-Aric, and Tristin
This is what happens when Aric, Tristin, and I stay up too late. It took Tristin a while after he said the second quote to process what Aric had said. Then Aric got what he had said as well. I got what they both said, but was too tired and I couldn't get my tongue to work. I have a lot of quotes like this.
"Does he come in assortments?"
-Aric, and Tristin
This is what happens when Aric, Tristin, and I stay up too late. It took Tristin a while after he said the second quote to process what Aric had said. Then Aric got what he had said as well. I got what they both said, but was too tired and I couldn't get my tongue to work. I have a lot of quotes like this.
Monday, November 1, 2010
Catch Up
Sorry for the lack of writing, the light in the darkness was flickering for a time and needed some help to get it's strength back. Thank you Tristin and Aric for your help, Father knows I needed it for a while.
I got a great deal of work on my book done, rough draft of the 2nd one is done. It needs a lot of work before I can really do anything with it, though. I am proud that I got it written down at last. It took me long enough. :P
I spent Halloween night at home watching the new Sherlock on PBS. The night before was the town night for trick or treating. I went to Tristin's for that. We had him hanging from a gallows by a harness hidden under his shirt and Aric was a head in the "candy" container. I was the witch that killed them both. I told the kids that were old enough to be scared that the candy was in the container that had Aric's head in it (there was a hole at the bottom and in the table too, so Aric could stick his head in there while he sat in a tight position under the table). Aric would do an evil laugh and scare them. Then I would give them the candy, but for the ones that were really tiny, I just gave them the candy. Tristin would pretend to be a dummy and then say "How's it hanging?" (or something along those lines) when they walked past. A few people thought I was a statue as they went for the doorbell. We had a lot of fun, and had a lot of laughs. At the end, Tristin could not walk straight from hanging in the harness for several hours and his back was killing him. Aric's knees and neck were hurting from being cramped under the table, but we both think Tristin had it the worst. After I was out of the witch costume and Tristin and Aric had nursed their wounds, we went to my house and watched Ironman 2. We had a lot of fun and I wish Tristin would be back next year so we could do it again.
I got a great deal of work on my book done, rough draft of the 2nd one is done. It needs a lot of work before I can really do anything with it, though. I am proud that I got it written down at last. It took me long enough. :P
I spent Halloween night at home watching the new Sherlock on PBS. The night before was the town night for trick or treating. I went to Tristin's for that. We had him hanging from a gallows by a harness hidden under his shirt and Aric was a head in the "candy" container. I was the witch that killed them both. I told the kids that were old enough to be scared that the candy was in the container that had Aric's head in it (there was a hole at the bottom and in the table too, so Aric could stick his head in there while he sat in a tight position under the table). Aric would do an evil laugh and scare them. Then I would give them the candy, but for the ones that were really tiny, I just gave them the candy. Tristin would pretend to be a dummy and then say "How's it hanging?" (or something along those lines) when they walked past. A few people thought I was a statue as they went for the doorbell. We had a lot of fun, and had a lot of laughs. At the end, Tristin could not walk straight from hanging in the harness for several hours and his back was killing him. Aric's knees and neck were hurting from being cramped under the table, but we both think Tristin had it the worst. After I was out of the witch costume and Tristin and Aric had nursed their wounds, we went to my house and watched Ironman 2. We had a lot of fun and I wish Tristin would be back next year so we could do it again.
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Crazy and Calm
It has been an interesting time for me. Lots of things are going on right now. The weather is getting colder, not badly, but fall is most definitely here. The Fall Festival we have having at the square is this Saturday and I am working a shift in a booth to help raise money for my high school class. Mom and I got blue spray for my hair...I intend to put it to good use for the booth. Show how badly we poor (literally) crazy little ones need to find new medications... on the other hand, I could end up putting ward mates in padded cells and straight jackets (if they don't have one already) and scaring people away from the booth....hmmm....
At the same time, I have to deal with high school on a regular basis. The teachers are doing their best, but class is dreadfully boring...I am counting down to the release time from the moment I step in there. The food is like nuclear waste with cardboard on most days. I want out, what I won't do for a way out.
Tristin went out of town for a while, so I was asked to take care of his dog while he was away. Abbey is a sweetheart, and I love her, even though I normally hate dogs. She was so happy to see me when I came by to see her today. I had left her outside all day as per Tristin's instructions, but she must know how to escape the chain...I walked up to the house, after being released from school and she comes running to the front yard to greet me. After last night's fight to get her in the house, while leaving the ball outside, I wasn't surprised to see she had the ball in her mouth again. I played with her and petted her until I had to leave, poor Abbey, I felt so bad leaving her chained up outside :(. Good thing her owners are back. :)
I still spend any free time I have talking to Aric. He texed me earlier saying he would be back in a bit because "Dinner is being obstinate" I had the image of Aric chasing a chicken around the kitchen, trying to get it into the cooking pot. I don't even know if that's what he is eating, whatever it is, it appears to still be alive.
I might be busy, but I still have time to unwind. I have one of my favorite books, oranges, a cat on my bed and a family who loves me...now I just need to print off that Bible Study worksheet...
At the same time, I have to deal with high school on a regular basis. The teachers are doing their best, but class is dreadfully boring...I am counting down to the release time from the moment I step in there. The food is like nuclear waste with cardboard on most days. I want out, what I won't do for a way out.
Tristin went out of town for a while, so I was asked to take care of his dog while he was away. Abbey is a sweetheart, and I love her, even though I normally hate dogs. She was so happy to see me when I came by to see her today. I had left her outside all day as per Tristin's instructions, but she must know how to escape the chain...I walked up to the house, after being released from school and she comes running to the front yard to greet me. After last night's fight to get her in the house, while leaving the ball outside, I wasn't surprised to see she had the ball in her mouth again. I played with her and petted her until I had to leave, poor Abbey, I felt so bad leaving her chained up outside :(. Good thing her owners are back. :)
I still spend any free time I have talking to Aric. He texed me earlier saying he would be back in a bit because "Dinner is being obstinate" I had the image of Aric chasing a chicken around the kitchen, trying to get it into the cooking pot. I don't even know if that's what he is eating, whatever it is, it appears to still be alive.
I might be busy, but I still have time to unwind. I have one of my favorite books, oranges, a cat on my bed and a family who loves me...now I just need to print off that Bible Study worksheet...
Saturday, October 2, 2010
Weekend
There is no better feeling than sleeping in on Saturday morning. Cozy bed and finding you have a book to read on the nightstand. (Yes, Tristin, I'm reading it) It gets better in the winter, when the rest of the room is cold and the bed is toasty warm. You can stay in there all you want and there is no reason to get up. The weekends are awesome.
Tristin came over last night, we met at the school and went to our favorite chocolate store. We talked about our plans for Halloween a bit and the fall festival out town does every year. Back at the house, we hung out in my room and goofed around. Tristin gave me some advice for one of my stories (which was very useful) and then we played with dragon toys and threw little egg and rabbit launcher thingys at each other. Later we ate pizza and watched "The Iron Giant" then got on my computer afterwards. It was a lot of fun and I can't wait to hang out with Aric and Tristin next weekend! :)
Tristin came over last night, we met at the school and went to our favorite chocolate store. We talked about our plans for Halloween a bit and the fall festival out town does every year. Back at the house, we hung out in my room and goofed around. Tristin gave me some advice for one of my stories (which was very useful) and then we played with dragon toys and threw little egg and rabbit launcher thingys at each other. Later we ate pizza and watched "The Iron Giant" then got on my computer afterwards. It was a lot of fun and I can't wait to hang out with Aric and Tristin next weekend! :)
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